who is who??

Can you tell which boy is which? Is Layton the one on the left or the right???

I guess we are going back home..

Last night Layton threw up in the middle of the night. I got him up and got him ready and he seemed fine so I thought maybe it was just something he ate. So I take the boys to daycare and I'm explaining to Tracy what happened last night, when Layton starts throwing up again. I said well I guess he's not better and we are going back home. He is a little fussy but I hope it doesn't last long because he has his first "field trip" tomorrow with Daycare. My mom is driving the bus so she will be there with him!! They are going to the amazing animal farm by Eden Valley! I wish I was going along but we have inservices all morning!! YUCKY! Well nothing else is new with me. I haven't had time to get out and hunt that monster buck and I probably won't as I will be spending as much time as I can with my boys. After going to that visitation for Cailyn, I will forever hold my boys a little closer and tighter. My heart goes out to that family!!! I don't ever want to let them go!!!!! So much is happening lately and I'm just so scared to leave them!!!!

Sleepy Boys

I must be wearing out the boys!! Unless they find comfort in the activities they are doing shortly before they fall asleep!!

Back to school..for Mommy!

No I'm not going back to College.. Somedays I wish I was back at college..I am going back to work today!! Am I excited?? Yes I am thrilled! Don't get me wrong, I love staying home with the kids but I also love interacting with the "older" kids too, although sometime they act like my kids but I still enjoy working with them! This week I work from 12:10 to 3:45 but they called me yesterday and offered me more hours so starting next Monday I will be working from 8:15-3:45..almost full time. I'm gonna miss the mornings with my boys but we will get plenty of time to play when I get home from work!! That's the newest detail in my life..

and I suppose everyone is wondering how bow hunting went on Saturday. Well it rained the entire time BUT I seen deer and that's always fun! Dad walked me to my spot and then left to go stand in his spot.. Well I'm puttsing around because it was kinda boring playing with the chipmunks, when all of sudden I hear Dad calling my name so I run out of the woods thinking he shot a deer already but really he was watching a Buck and doe and wanted me by him in hopes of getting a nice shot at one. Well We watched them for a little bit then the buck disappeared so I moved to a new spot just about 100 yards from dad. I didn't see the buck but I watched 2 small does eat off a tree. So I did have some action but nothing close enough to shoot. Hopefully this fall I will have time to get out there more and HOPEFULLY I will atleast get a shot off at that MONSTER buck!!!

Well nothing else is new with me, Layton is going to Daycare full time now and he loves it!! He learns so much there! Lane will be with Karen (his Grandma) most of the days, I don't think infants that small should be in daycare yet. He needs lots of TLC!!:) He will be going to daycare 2 days a week though.

Well until something new happens...

New Pictures

Here are just a few new pictures of the boys. They sure grow up fast!!!! My mom got a new four wheeler so the boys just LOVE riding on it. I start school on Tuesday and I can't wait to be back!! I miss seeing the students everyday!!! Also tomorrow is the big opener!!! Looking forward to a great year hunting..well I hope I can say that in December when I have a nice buck on my wall!! hehe!!! I'm so excited I bet I won't be able to sleep tonight...

She really isn't mad it just looks that way

Bobby

**If you are not a believer you might not want to read this blog.**

On Tuesday Katie and I went and seen a psychic medium. The experience was amazing. She told Katie and I things that there is NO WAY she would know about. A lot of my reading had to do with Chad. And I think it will help with the grieving process. Now if you don't believe in these things then you won't ever have signs from loved ones. It's a healing method. I believe Chad is with us just by somethings that have happened to me. Chad was also a believer in Ghosts and LOVED the show ghost hunters. Well apparently there was a ghost in our house waking up the boys, (thats why I never sleep at night!) his name was Bobby (Robert) and he was about 10 years old, he died in the 1930's and was sick at the time of his death. Chad wanted our house to be peaceful again so that's why he told the psychic about Bobby. She opened the light and released the ghost of our house. What is strange is that we always heard creeking upstairs when no one was up there. So far I haven't heard any creeking since she removed Bobby. Ha..anyways, it was an emotional experience also, Chad got to hold Lane's soul before he (Lane) was put on earth on July 29th. There is so much more she told me and I have a tape of our reading just so I can listening to it whenever I need it!! But you have to be a believer to believe even a little bit of it. To be honest I didn't believe everything she told me but who can get everything right!!!!

So, it was fun and different, and I'll leave it at that!

The Dreaded SHOTS....

Today Layton had his 15 month check up. (on his 15 month birthday!). He weighed in at 28 lbs 4 oz (90th percentile), he is 33 1/4 inches long (95th percentile) and his head is 19 inches around (80th percentile). He's not so little anymore, I guess he never was real little!! He will be my linebacker someday!! He also got one shot, I think I get more nervous than him and I don't know why because everytime he gets shots he is up flirting with the nurses within seconds of getting the shot. So today the nurse sticks him and I see he got the "oh crap that kinda hurt" look on his face, so I start cheering and clapping for him, he soon forgets about the pain and joins in on the fun! We walked out of the clinic and he was still cheering for that shot!! What a good little boy I have, I hope the next one is that easy. His first shots some in a couple weeks!:S

That's it for now. Katie and I have a fun night planned, and if I decide to tell anyone I will write it on here!! Have a super day!

It's about that time of year!

Yup you guessed it, it's almost HUNTING season!!!! I decided mommy needed a new toy so I purchased myself a new bow. On September 13th I officially get to put it to use as archery season opens and I will be off searching for the great white tailed deer. and one with Antlers too! I just get so pumped up around this time of year. There is no greater rush than sitting in the woods listening to every sound of nature and hoping that one cracking stick is from a massive deer stepping on it, making it's way to my tree stand. I can't wait to look into the squirrels eyes that is on the tree next to me and wonder if it is going to attack me, I can't wait to watch the birds fly over and have no idea I am sitting there. and I can't wait to just enjoy being in the woods on a nice fall day in search of some food to put on the table. Heck, I have to provide for my family!! Well I'm off to do some more target shooting, I need to prep myself for when that monster makes it way towards me on the 13th!!

I'll leave you with some pictures of my new bow and a new one of Lane! Can you believe he will be 6 weeks old on Tuesday!

Orbs or merely just dust particles.

Believe what you want. But to most of you they just might be dust particles but to me it is Chad's sign to me that he was at Lane's baptism. Phil and Karen have had a few unexplainable things happen to them since Chad has passed away. I have had one dream that I hold on too because it was so vivid and real! When I see little things like this it brings comfort to me, it's my way to letting myself know things are okay and will continue to be okay! So.. I will believe it's Chad and others will not. It's like a 3 year old and their imagination, except I'm 23 and I'm still a believer!!