Praying

Its been one busy weekend, last night we headed up to Abbott to visit my Grandma in the ICU. Its hard to see someone you love so much in the hospital. She is in really good hands though!!! we set up a caringbridge site for her..

www.caringbridge.org/visit/lucillebauer

More to be thankful for

Tonight I have even more to be thankful for. I want to thank the Winthrop Ambulance crew, hutchinson hospital, lifelink helicopter, and the Abbott Hospital staff for taking such good care of my Grandma during her heartattack. She is in the ICU right now and she isn't out of the woods yet but I pray for the medical staff to do whatever they do to keep her healthy!!!!!

Its amazing how fast life can flash before your eyes. How fast something to precious to you can be taken away. The last things I told my Grandma was that I loved her!! And I plan on saying it to her a lot more times!! Hug the people close to you and cherish every moment with them. Life can throw us some curve balls!!!

I'm saying a prayer for my Grandma tonight!! Thank You Lord for giving us another chance to tell her we love her!

What am I THANKFUL for?

1. I am thankful for my family.

3. Layton
4. Lane
5. Good Health
6. I am thankful I have a roof over my head and wheels to get me to work.
7. I am thankful for my job
8. I am thankful for my Grandparents for teaching me some important lessons in life
9. That also goes for my parents.
10. I am thankful the friends in my life.
11. I am thankful for the new friends I have made this year.
12. I am very thankful for the open arms into the Wingen Family.
13. I am also VERY thankful I met Chad!! He has changed my life in ways I bet he never imagined he would.
14. I am thankful for the doctors who brought my beautiful sons into this world!
15. I am thankful I seen atleast ONE deer this year and that I got a shot off.
16. My life
17. For Ann, she has helped me in so many ways.
18. All the kids at school. Even though some days they drive me crazy.
19. For teacher and educators, drs and nurses
20. I am thankful for having God in my life. He might not answer all my prayers but I know he is there!!

What are you thankful for. There are so many more but I'll stop at 20.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE. I am hoping my Holidays are filled with Happiness and I will try to get through them knowing the people who have passed are sharing this day with us, in spirit!

We got hit!

we got hit by the "COLD". All three of us at the same time! There has been very little sleep for this Momma. and I Can't wait until we are all healthy and sleeping through the night again! I'm up about every hour with Lane, Layton will sleep in his bed for a couple hours then wants to be with us. So we really aren't cold, we are snuggly warm but we all have stuffy noses, sore throats, and the coughs. Vicks vapor rub did the trick last night!! I even used some. Today we are going to have a little visitor over for a little play or "stare at each other time" (since they are both babies. Then it's off for family pictures. I'm excited, I hope they turn our ok!! Then it will be home for Hot baths and hopefully, cross your fingers, SOME SLEEP!!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone had a great weekend. This week I am looking forward to yummy food and I have lots to be thankful for!

New Photos

Nothing really new, just wanted to share some photos. Lane rolled over and I missed it the first time and then I seen it again last night!! I'll have to get out the camrea and try getting it on film!! Layton still likes using the potty, he how needs to have his book while sitting on the potty. He has yet to go but he sure looks good trying!!

Same old same old

Same stuff different day. The basics are accuring at our house lately..(I don't want to sound too much like a proud momma cause I understand most kids do these things through out their developmental stages!! haha) Layton is sitting on the potty, talking up a storm (I can't believe how much he picks up on..ex: we were watching Little People Big World and one of the boys on TV climbed on the counter and Layton yelled ..Dett DOWN! (Get down). He will also say NO NO BUS.. DOWN WAA WAA..NO NO BABA. BAANEY? (Barney) and so on.) Lane is on the verge of rolling over and...SLEEPING THROUGH the night. He loves to sit up in his bumbo chair and also lay under the play gym thing for babies and bat the toys that hang down! I can't believe he will be 4 months on the 19th and Layton is almost 18 months.. Seriously where has time gone!! As for me, well.. firearms season is over, still nothing to report. My mom's fried Jerry got a nice eight pointer, but me..i'll have to wait until next year. Bow hunting is still open but I just have has enough of the cold weather and really don't wanna sit out there anymore. Who knows, I might get the urge to get back out there!! Oh wait a minute there is something new with me, I'm going on vacation!!! YIPPEE!!! Vegas here I come, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to me! A 4 day trip and I'm sure I will be more than ready to come back to my kids. I like the idea of going but not really liking the idea of being away from my kids that long. Somehow I have to find a way to store my breastmilk while I am gone (just what everyone wanted to know), but really that's my biggest worry right now, besides being away from the boys. I love traveling, and I can't wait to take my kids to places I never got to go to as a child and to experience those things with them. Who seriously wants to stay in MN their whole lives and not see the "outside" world, there is so much out there.

LOSER..haha thats the first thing i think of when I see this picture

Hunter Lane..Just like Mommy and his Daddy

Great Grandma Uecker and Laner

Jerry's Nice eight pointer.. boy am I jealous.. nice deer though
and Jerry and My mom

Before I was a Mom!

He truly does amaze me. today I ventured out with both boys to the store. I get in and out just fine, it's while I'm putting Lane in the car that Layton takes off. I catch him before he can get too far and he is resisting my attemp to hold Of course there are some tears but he manages to get up and shake it off.. then we get home and he is talking away like normal.."DOWN..WAA WAA" He is saying he fell down in the water!! I was so shocked that he made a sentence..well kinda, but he was sure trying!!!

I also want to share this poem with you.. I got it in an e-mail and it could not have been written any better! I forgot what life was like before I had kids.. Seriously what did I do with all that time on my hands! Sometimes I might wish for a vacation but I wouldn't trade my job for the world!! Even when it talks about plants being poisonous, who would seriously think about that if you weren't a mom, I know I checked into that before Layton came along!! Enjoy Moms!

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a
Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a
Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel

to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.
Before
I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a
Mom.

One of those days..

Yesterday I had one of those days..and lately I haven't been having them as often. It was a "I really miss Chad day" I seen pictures of his headstone and it just became all to real! Honestly I don't even like going out there but to see the final touches was kind of hard. It's only been about 8 months but that was the last piece to be placed. or so it seems. And what makes it even harder is the Holidays that are right around the corner. 1 year ago I was the happiest girl ever, now today, I am grieving something that was good in my life..for once. Its like one minute your on top of the world and the next everything is turned upside down. I look at Lane now and I am sad for him. He will never know his Dad, he will never hear his voice, he will never smell him, play baseball with him, hunt with him, watch a scary movie with him, read a book with him, Chad won't be there to teach him how to ice skate and eventually play hockey, I sure the heck don't know how. I will try my darnest to do whatever I can to make sure he knows as much about his father as possible and I know the Wingen's will too. Really..that's all we can do and we can let Chad do the rest from above... okay I just have to vent.. Ann tells me I should do that in whatever way helps..this would be it...

Layton is continuing to amaze me everyday! The things he is saying just make me laugh. Yesterday he started sitting on the potty. I'm not pushing potty training, he wanted to do it. He didn't pee of course but he sat and sat and used A LOT of toilet paper. and I'm afraid to say it but I think the terrible two's are starting. Today at daycare he had 3 timeouts..once for bitting and twice for hitting. That's not normal for him, although, tonight has been really rough so maybe it was the weather..lets just hope thats what it was.

Lane is growing like a weed. He is almost rolling over, his eyes changed to a hazel color, and he is almost eating baby food. Can you believe on the 29th he will be 4 months old!!! Where has the time gone? I am looking forward to the Holidays with my boys!!!

And for me, lets see.. I wake up, get kids ready, go to work, come home from work, play with the kids, bathtime, then bed time.. that's pretty much my life..Except for this past weekend when..let me remind you..I missed the buck of a lifetime..no i'm still not over it..

Well i'm gonna e-mail some family about Christmas ideas...until next time..

It was a dream come true until....

Firearms hunting opener, snow, wind, 35 degree tempertures. I was on a mission, I was going to shoot a deer this year, and I couldn't have had a better chance, to screw it up! Dad and I walk out right at shooting hours in hopes of kicking something out. We did kick out 2 does but I couldn't shoot them because I didn't have a doe permit. So we stand in the woods a little bit hopeing some other hunters kick something out. Sure enough there runs a doe, back into the woods, and that's why my dream came true. Dad says TRISH THERE'S ONE.. BANG BANG.. GET UP THERE AND SHOOT (out of the woods and up on the field!) IT'S HUGE...SHOOT..BANG.. KEEP SHOOTING..BANG BANG.. KEEP SHOOTING..BANG. DID IT FALL...IS IT SLOWING DOWN.. BLEEP BLEEP BLEEP... THAT THING WAS A MONSTER! BLEEP BLEEP BLEEP!

There you have it.. the monster buck I have been talking about, you know..the one I was gonna shoot..Yup well it's still out there!! Dad said that's the biggest deer he has ever seen a live, and the guy who missed it before me said he was a MONSTER too.. Let me tell you, I had dreams about that thing last night, more like a nightmare. The whole thing keeps replaying in my mind and I just keep kicking myself for not hitting that thing. Not that I want to make excuses but here might be some reasons to why I missed the biggest deer in Sibley County..

1. Blowing snow in my face
2. I was using my dad's gun, which I have never shot before.
3 The deer was running away from me..at an angle

Everyone keeps telling me that was a once in a lifetime chance and now I feel even worse about missing it! Not like I TRIED to miss it!!! I was hopeing so bad to see that thing fall!!! He's still alive for a reason, he's smart!

We did trial it once it got to the state land but then it crossed the ditch and was GONE!!!!! So there ya have it.. the story you have been waiting for, without the happy ending!! I knew he was out there!!

Snow, are you kidding me!

Just wanted to welcome the first snow of the season...now you can leave again!!! Thanks!

laughing Layton!

Layton and I playing a little peek a boo with a book.. He finds it to be VERY funny!!! the video doesn't do justice to his actual giggle!!!

The Right to Vote: I VOTED!

Well today is the big day, the day that we might finally get to see some Change. To be honest, I didn't understand the voting process until just last year!! Sad, I know, but now I understand. We aren't voting for an actual person we are voting for the political party. Because the Electoral college takes care of voting for the President in December! I think it should be by popular vote but it's not. I do know Minnesota gets 10 electoral votes! Hehe.. Good thing I am working at the High School. I learn something new everyday, or I just didn't pay attention in High School! So anyways, this morning I woke up all excited to get out and VOTE. I even got up early, and got the kids off to their destinations and I headed to the polls. It was quick and painless, and I proudly wore the red "I VOTED" sticker. THEY say this is the most historic voting and I am proud to say I took part in it! And I also want to let the Quast's know that if I lived in Gaylord, Doug would have been my vote, and No not because he is family but because he is a great Mayor!! GO DOUG!!! Now I lay in bed and watch the future of the USA hopefully change!! I am ready for a more positive outlook on things and lets just pray we choose the right President to do the job!!! I am a proud American and I'm glad I exersiced my right to vote!!!