Random Ramblings

Here I go again..

Ultimitly what life comes down to are the things that make you happy and the type of person you became. After this weekend, I came to the understanding that I could totally make myself miserable and let the people around me make me miserable or I can let it go and do what makes me happy. Although I truely believe the statement "what goes around comes around", I will wait until that happens. Why should I waste my life worry about what is said to me, maybe I should focus on the little lives I have right in front of me. (which is usually my main focus). My new years resolution is to set goals. That will give me something to go after and a purpose to everything I do!

I don't know why but I had all this stuff in my head that I wanted to write down but when it comes time to type it all out, it just doesn't come like I want it too. So now i'm stuck..and honestly, I feel kinda stuck in life right now too. I have two boys, I want to raise them under MY roof, I want them to each have a father figure in their life, and I wouldn't mind having someone in my life too. Not going to push for that but there gets to be a point in your life when you finally feel "ready", I kinda feel that way, I also have had the feeling to pack up and move somewhere new, and start a life. But really I know I wouldn't be able to do that. Job security is a big reason, second I really don't have the money to do that and third, my family is all here!! We will see where 2009 brings me!!!